I can't believe how awkward my life is.

At least, to make it better, I now remember him saying, "My dad wanted me home at 1. Imagine if I had listened.."

So.. that makes it better...-ish.. right?

Boys are stupid. But I'm stupider.
Fuck. They always win.

 Awkward conversation todayyy. Had to be done, though. And more to come. Oy vey.
Anyway, Natalie is a doll.

In other news...
How do these cracked out addicts find love and not me?
Intervention, man... opens my  eyes to all kinds of crazy.

And THIS is why I can't trust people.

Asshole.

Argh.

This past year or so I have been dedicating myself to building very thick walls. Because I'm done trusting people. Thus far, that's what I have learned from every relationship I have ever had. Be it friendship or otherwise.

But, of course, I let one guy throw a wrench into the works and now I'm walking around with butterflies.

Ugh.

Oh, fish guy... I could really fall for you.

Yay, new job. It's working out ok. Except for being 75% covered in bruises. Also, going to bed before 10 PM is doing wonders for my overall crankiness toward my younger siblings.

One guy friend is confusing the *hell* out of me. Uhm. Hello? Your serious, long-time girlfriend. Remember?


I can't wait until August. So many fun things planned :)

I did some sketching today.. the first time in a long time. I think I'll start some kind of painting later... I have a shit ton of canvas sheets.

I drew my very own Hermione and Harry.. I need to finish them (among four or five other sketches). And I desperately need to practice drawing textures. It's all very flat looking.. as I usually draw nudes.

Also started Cowboy Bebop {again}. Such a great show.



It is SO warm. I need to get outdoors eventually.


And.. I would be forever grateful if I never saw Kevin again. Please. Please. Please... can they break up?

Why is it every time I think about him.. I realize yet another way he made me so fucked up in the head?

I'm so tired of feeling this.

Can it be over now?
Please?