I signed onto AIM for like the second time this summer, and I find it fucking eerie that she's still signed on. Because I forgot for a moment, then it hit me again.

Living here is like torture for them, so don't they think I find this place unbearable?

UASDLKJADJKLASD

I just want to be in the middle of the woods, unreachable, for life. But that week will do.


Can't I fast forward this next week, please? I don't even care about the Tyra Show. Or seeing Eric the Fish Guy.

*nods*

( Distraction. )

"Instituting a modest and progressive excise tax on payroll and self-employment income."
"Instituting a small tax on stock and bond transactions."

Fuck off, government. Tax me more for making money? And tax me to cash in a savings bond?

Also-
"Title I- Eligibility and Benefits
Sec. 101. Eligibility and Registration
(a) In General.- All individuals residing in the United States (including any territory of the United States) are covered..."

So... not just for citizens, eh? Cool. Illegals are AWESOME. Give them health care, baby. Why the ef not?

I hate getting my hopes up.

Literally moments away from a total meltdown.

Sometimes I am overall too sensitive to function.

1. I hate FAKEFAKEFAKEFAKE people.

2. I hate my internet at home, it's reallyreallyreally starting to get to me.

3. I'm falling ---back into bad habits.

4. I'm slightly curious about a friend who I barely know and have weird stalker daydreams (while laying in bed at night) about how to get to know him.

5. I hate how fortune telling card game completely broke my heart when I really hoped it had been mended.

6. I love seeing my family from Georgia--and that my seven month cousin is the same size of the nineteen month I babysit.

7. I hate how I care and how I wish things were different and that I still wonder just about every time I open up the internet what I did wrong.

8. This summer might be turning into my worst nightmare.

Get me out. Now.


Is it time to gooooo camping yet?

Ok. Listen. I know what might have happened to you is awful, and I really hope it didn't. Honest, I hope it didn't.

BUT..

If you're going to go absolutely public with your story-people are going to talk. In fact, people have not stopped talking about it since. And I mean everybody. Whether they know you or not.

THEREFORE..

If you find out one particular person said something about the situation that you didn't like-you don't attempt to attack her in a drunken stuper. A lot of people are saying terrible things, and quite frankly, what you heard wasn't even true. I wish more than anything I was not passed out on the couch for this confrontation, you fool.

JUST THINK ABOUT IT..

Maybe, just maybe, bringing your case to the community before the police were finished investigating wasn't the best move. It sort of made it a joke more than anything, and I know it's not. It's potentially deathly serious.

ALSO..

Hiding behind doors is just mad creepy when you pretty much had us kicked out of the building.

Everything inside of me feels completely broken.

My brain, my heart.. my being.